yeah, i know. we are all racists, every single person on this world harbors racist feelings, some just don't show it so much, others are racist against everyone who isnt white or who is another race, some are selectively racist, some are denying it while having racist feelings, some are denying it while being outspokingly racist, some are pathological racists, some are trying to fight it inside themselves, more or less successfully, some keep their racism in check and are just not openly racist to people bc they don't want to hurt other people's feelings, some use their racism to provoke anger and turmoil on the other side, some are raging wars over their racism and instigate forced displacements, persecutions and genocides on entire races or racial groups they're racist against, some are outspokingly anti-racist and hate racists so much they could literally kill them bc they get reminded of their own racism and racist feelings they have inside without wanting to feel that way.and then there are some, like me, who have been harassed, assaulted, also sexually, threatened, insulted, violated by a specific group of people just bc they're women for far too long and frequently, they just had developed a deeply rooted hatred against this specific group of people, over a long period of time, they just stopped giving a fucking shit about soft-pedaling around the stupid fucking question "is racism bad?" or "am i a bad person when i'm racist against someone?" and just tell it how it is, Arab men, especially the younger ones in that age group 18-60 years are fucking pigs, all of them, bc they've been raised a certain way that told them and continually tells them that women are inferior to men and therefore they have to obey any man's demands and orders and have no rights and certainly no right for a self-determind life, and especially western women are all sluts, so we can be extra disrespectful and nasty to them, all of them, with no exceptions. that's the kind of men, from a specific cultural sphere i cannot stand bc they're from that society who have been shaped and formed that way all their lives, there's not even a chance of reforming these people and make better persons out of them if you only just show understanding and tolerance and acceptance no matter if they just sexually assaulted you or called you "thirsty whore" or grabbed your tits, butt, or crotch on the street in broad daylight. we are all equal if only everyone loves everyone the same way, lets forget about all that other stuff that just causes negative vibes. lets be positive whatever it takes!that's all absolute quixotic idealistic bullshit, imagined by fucking cowards who sit in an ivory tower all day and have no idea of the streets and what goes down there. there's the actual life, and there's a lot of really nasty things happening on them every single fucking day of the week of the month of the year of the decade of the century. and that's why i don't delude myself anymore into thinking i am not racist and i will never be racist in my entire life for as long as i live cuz i'm a good person and sheep of this phoney dishonest and ignorant goody-goody starry-eyed society. i just tell it how it is. Arab men are pigs and i can't stand them nor do i want to talk to any of them if i don't have to. and i avoid them like the plague, bc yeah, i know that's racist af, but i don't give a shit. it didnt just happen out of nowhere, it was a process i've gone through involving traumatic experiences and overcoming them and this now is the outcome of that process. i cant stand Arab men and do not fucking care about them as a whole group. and i don't feel bad about this either. fuck them. period.