The Soapbox : Do you want a feeling of hope in life?

Do you want people to torment you and surround you to feel hopeless about feeling better because you've been so messed up that you are incapable of sharing your gifs or love you've been looking forward to showing off to the world?

Do you want people to play with death? like they own it? and yours?

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Do you want people to torment you and surround you to feel hopeless about feeling better because you've been so messed up that you are incapable of sharing your gifs or love you've been looking forward to showing off to the world?

Do you want people to play with death? like they own it? and yours?

What???

I thought you wanted to discuss wanting to feel hope!

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You asked a pretty question; I've given you the ugly answer.
Fasten Your Seatbelts….
It's Going To Be A Bumpy Night!

Yea, but some people in Cleveland or the area apparently don't want to let that happen. It's hard enough to wind down on your own.

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Are the people in Cleveland problematic?

Yes, but a lot of the older ones, especially women, are nice and friendly and strong as people and personalities and smart and emotionally so, makes you feel like life is on track, in many ways, despite the problems that might go around with people like me from some, be those problems from online and whatnot or people with problems, sometimes the way many are driving, maybe in some areas like East Cleveland. I'm in my 2nd group home in this city.

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I'm happy with the house and services mostly.

Other things can bother me.

I'm excited to neaten up my room, I just was tired coming here and went to a classical concert late last night, on the bus.

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I wonder if I'll crash and burn from being weary of old age or taking pills instead of being able to play violin like a professional. I wonder if I could have done it if I practiced more 5 years ago.

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It's the same all over.
Didn't anyone ever tell you that you aren't going to be liked by everyone?
Do you like everyone?
Just be friends with the people who do enjoy your company.
Don't worry about what people think of you. If some people don't like you, that is their problem… not yours.

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You asked a pretty question; I've given you the ugly answer.
Fasten Your Seatbelts….
It's Going To Be A Bumpy Night!

Yes.

Probably not.


… I hope people are okay if I don't agree that I should suffer their convictions of me.

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Once again, Don't worry about what people think of you.

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You asked a pretty question; I've given you the ugly answer.
Fasten Your Seatbelts….
It's Going To Be A Bumpy Night!

No I like sulking and feeling hopeless.

Hope Floats!

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Bum pum, bum pum, bum pum, bum pum, bum pum, bum pum, bum pum

I just want to get hit hy a bus or die in a freak accident.

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I feel ya! People are going to die sooner or later, anyway. There must be some annoying people still around, too. A lot of people seem to just give up.

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😆 lol you're funny!

I used to be happy.

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If only I knew in the past what I do now.. I'd have had no kids and I'd have been dead for at least a decade lol.

Call it depression if you will, but I call it being aware that there is no purpose to anything, and I want out, but I can't because that's selfish.

I try to just be as happy as I can be, always have a smile on my face/happy, polite, blah de blah, but inside I've died 10x over, and been a long time dead. If you could see my insides I'm pretty sure they'd have a constant bitch face.

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Don't be sad

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Life is a sexually transmitted disease that ends in death. Where's the hope in that?