The Soapbox : Now, what? I should have moved to Germany years ago, somehow.

I think later on my mom even said I could learn to teach English in another country with a certification. I think it takes a few months, like an hour a day. I'm hoping to make money to move there by acting, hitting the gym. I want to learn German and play violin. I feel a bit discouraged, now, followed an orchestra online for 5 years. I might just be there for the tail end of some excitement before life becomes miserable as Generation X takes over. I wonder if I'll die of natural causes before this is over. I feel I can't recover emotionally/psychologically/psychiatrically from all the abuse I've experienced in the last 16 years. I even prefer to die now in some ways, not trusting that an older European Late Baby Boomer lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with will always be alive, you know? The will to live had already been sucked out of me and dead. I do feel honed in on and like the world is following me and this lady and keep making it miserable for me. Life is not a mystery, and people think humans are God. No one will take responsibility for their bitterness. They're always under other people's skin and making them depressed. I mean, yea, I guess we all die someday. I was sorta sensing life would be a journey into the afterlife.

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I think later on my mom even said I could learn to teach English in another country with a certification.

Save yourself the trip and expense. Try learning German, and then you can take on students right there in Cleveland. There must be plenty of people right here in this country who might want to learn the German language. You seem interested enough.

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You asked a pretty question; I've given you the ugly answer.
Fasten Your Seatbelts….
It's Going To Be A Bumpy Night!

I acted in a shark film!

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Bum pum, bum pum, bum pum, bum pum, bum pum, bum pum, bum pum

Yea, I've been very lucky, so far!

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