"i miss Monica so fucking much.. i just… i just can’t help but feel like watching paint dry is a better way to get over that stabbing feeling than having to come here and seeing her post and thinking of how i fucked this up. the only reason i’m here now is because i just got done staring at a freshly painted wall for most of the day. i also miss Monica terribly and the times she was still into me and she and i had that special thing going on that couldve been so big and wonderful now. but i fucked it up royally. please, help me!"